clouds

i will let you fade into a memory

keeping the dream alive

help it smile

and weave

and weave...

my heart is home

guests

so they say im a guest in my life,
making special appearances,
one instant, i almost met me,
i was shy to say hello,
although i did seem happy, or at least i think so.

i have seen death,
lived to see my life's final breath,
i saw her put up a fight,
i knew i must leave,
i cried on my shoulder,
'i love you' i told her

there is not much to take away,
not much that makes me stay,
and all in all
i saw me have a ball,
but when lightning struck,
i saw me looking hollow, i think i thought i died.

now, i am lazarus, back from the netherworld,
and as i tell my tale,
i see these faces go pale,
why? i ask,
and take off my heavy mask..

trouble and abuses

Why do you abuse?
Arrey bhainchod!!! put your brains to some better use!!

there is cacophony,
as i tasted my warm milk

fuck this shit,
Lies,
they disguise and dump him in the pit

Screw you motherfuckers,i'll see you in hell,
im already tired of here,can't you tell?

the sound of the shovel,
as the diggers heaved the soil,
choking sobbing,putting an end to the turmoil.

'now' screamed Pandora
and her lover appeared,
he ran towards the digger,scaring him with his beard.

the mud came flying out,
the castles they fell,
hear Freedom crying out,
death like quiet,the mournful knell.

not now,not never
will you ever be caged, the world needs sin,
it needs rage
its daily fix of adrenalin comes with a heavy price,
Pandora whimpered in the corner,
surrounded by vermin and mice.

maby baking

so what happens when you want to make a baby?
i mean,yup...think about it,your a guy that wants to get his wife pregnant.you've thought about it. over and over. It seems right.
what do you think of it as?
you (we) want someone of our own..
or
'honey,i love you so much and i love me so much i want to make something out of the both of us!!'
or
'ok..listen,ive been thinking about this,now that christmas is over,and i got the promotion,and your brother is settled,real estate's finally stabalised,the markets look good,spain won the world cupmy hair still looks awesome,and so does your ass!!!!why dont we..erm..have a baby!!!??'
is it like a project
or 'the grand finale'?
hmm..i wonder.
so this time..while i bid a tearful adieu to the small wet city of dum..i had some thoughts
hmm..
the need of the hour has left and gone for a shower,
he claims to have come fromt he netherworld,unmasking asking,
for the World
the dungeons have no room
Time that witch!!she broke her loom
the pattern she was wont to weave,
used to make her sigh and heave!!
'ugliness!!ugliness!!
when will you leave?'
when there is little left to say,
i wonder if i may,
have the last dance?
what?
speak up!!did you just mention the lost chance?
of what, or when or whom?
an old man gathering moss,a young man giving a girl a toss!!
'women are like salad,the more you toss the better they taste'
what?
did you just say waste?not when you dont care enough,not when you dont care enough,my friend.
oh!!look at that Bear, he's standing on his head and pawing at his master..he's wearing a ..a...hmm,strange,he's wearing a tuxedo,and has eyes like glazed alabaster!
cocain?did i hear?
thats preposterous!!a bear cant snort cocain..!!
'my love,'she answered,'you'll be surprised to see what Happiness does when in pain.

about birth

my maid back home has three children,out of which only one has a birth certificate,which means the remaining,dont really exist as per government norm.
interesting
so, basically for all those lakhs of maids out there who have these lakhs of children,theres actually much more than the lakhs of children,who are not really real,since they technically don't exist.
they live,nondescript lives and die quite deaths,dreaming all the while

mad major

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Happiness Cried

'regrets and wishes shall truly be freely given and if there was any flaw in that heaven, it would be your ability to wish, to be anywhere, up there or in here talking to me'

happiness cried while Honesty was lowered in to the ground.All of nature held their breath in silence as Death set her apart, as though 'one crowned'.
Her tears making a pool around her..not long after,she drowned.

night

having a smoke at 3 am on my kitchen balcony was an ordinary occurance.
the road below seemed mellow,and friendly, for a change
hmm..strange..
It felt like someone's living room, if you ask me.Two friends sat on their bikes, talking, smoking, the silence carrying their voices far.The guard paused and said hello to the rickshaw guys, while he bought chai.
An occasional car.Or bike whurring by : impatient, and loud
the Dogs, ruling the streets, like kings! strutting around purposefully.
i Shared the street with them for those 10 minutes of my peacefull night smoke.All pretentions put aside, the poor dont have time for it.
the friends left in sometime.The guard and rickshaw guys looking on..
one of the dogs nuzzled his snout against the guard's knee..'its okay,im still here..'

organised thought

one sunny day Organised woke up from his bed and thought..

the tree vs the laptop

there is a delirium caused by thought that allows your mind to drift to places it never would have ordinarily.
why?
is the question plaguing my mind more often than i would like it to.
Sometimes, just sometimes, a constant state of flux bothers the mind.Mind vs Matter.
the mind no longer minds and matter doesn't matter..or does it?
the turn to religion and where the whole battle began
why must your mind lean toward mooring that ties it down, in an attempt to be functional.
who defines functionality?
facebook?the budget?your budget?parents?the weather?
theres no telling lies, and no truth set in stone.
its a paradox.
no winners no real losers, just material losers.
in this eternal battle of the tree vs my laptop, as of now..the laptop is winning!!!!
ride on mofoooo..

radiation causes brain abrasion

my mind has been abraised and repraised along with a lot other stuff which is not meant to happen at an ordinary level.
the strange tings that happen once you finally decide to decide and not vacillate.
terminal illness cause by lack of thought of or the lack of thought caused by terminal illnesses,i wonder which or which one?

lovely beta and kobu are dead

this feed will be about dead things
because they are dead and its sad,they deserve it
lovely beta,is dead because i ripped the off the sticker and lost the cap
i dont know which one happened first.
i think it was the cover.and now it lies inside my laptop case unused and long abused
kobu,my loyal mpthree player got robbed from my house,ahemm!!while i slept peacefully.
i also lost some money
and my phone
he left the sim cards though..sweet
thats it
im done