Monday, April 10, 2017

Immortality



when you find yourself in paper bags strewn across the sand
small cupcakes locked inside the pantry
tell us who will eat them?

the tiniest of dwarfs spoke to me about big things like sailing the sea and
looking for lost treasure
I looked at him and laughed, because I knew the secret,
they always fought for gold that had already been sold,
the highest bidder who slept while they walked their dogs and spoke of the Wild Ways in
which we lived today.

Sort the papers out
looking through the looking glass and seeing nothing but kaliedoscopic lights and
some sugar on the other side, whos to say who will have the last laugh?
clear your throat while they prepare to speak, it shall be all or nothing
we cannot stop now
this our time
will wash away doubt of action and rebellion



Afterword

Its been so long I sat down and wrote, almost seems like forever.
That I asked myself, hey sasha, how are you?
who are you?
how's it going?

Today, of all the days since a year, I think, I feel like asking myself how I am.
I feel like peeking into my soul, and saying - boooyaaaaahhhh
who's in there??>?>>?!!
This time im not scared of the answer, so I know I'll stay to hear the answers.
Its been some time recovering from love, UTI and tummy issues, it's been a longer time still suffering from something I'd call seriouslymania, where everything, amongst other things, seems particularly, well, serious.

LOL

There has been some major revelations in the past 2 months, one : is that I can be quiet, like very quiet, and the other, is that I can be sad, truly deeply sad, and the other is that insane happiness walks hand in hand with insane sorrow, it just depends on which side you're looking at. Aren't these the cliches everyone is so tired of listening to : but these are the truths, that lie at the heart of all of human life. So yes, I have been on a rollercoaster - its been swinging up, going down low, going super fast, as I felt tears from the mad wind streak my face, I saw everything and everyone I know go by in a blur, I felt love, anger, pain, hate, insecurity/security, uncertainty/certainty, all of it, like a huge wave, coming crashing down on me, and there I was dancing through it all, a mad dance, a violent and sometimes funny, sometimes enchanting dance.
And now, from where we are at, to where we need to be, there is so little that sets us free. Another sunset, another sunrise added to our days., days of healing, days of truth, days of glory, days when the universe tells you, slow down silly clown..slow down..
put a method to yourself silly clown,
put a method
take a leap of faith silly clown,
but climb the mountain with a bagful of patience.
6 am
again..
and its dawn again..