Its been so long I sat down and wrote, almost seems like forever.
That I asked myself, hey sasha, how are you?
who are you?
how's it going?
Today, of all the days since a year, I think, I feel like asking myself how I am.
I feel like peeking into my soul, and saying - boooyaaaaahhhh
who's in there??>?>>?!!
This time im not scared of the answer, so I know I'll stay to hear the answers.
Its been some time recovering from love, UTI and tummy issues, it's been a longer time still suffering from something I'd call seriouslymania, where everything, amongst other things, seems particularly, well, serious.
LOL
There has been some major revelations in the past 2 months, one : is that I can be quiet, like very quiet, and the other, is that I can be sad, truly deeply sad, and the other is that insane happiness walks hand in hand with insane sorrow, it just depends on which side you're looking at. Aren't these the cliches everyone is so tired of listening to : but these are the truths, that lie at the heart of all of human life. So yes, I have been on a rollercoaster - its been swinging up, going down low, going super fast, as I felt tears from the mad wind streak my face, I saw everything and everyone I know go by in a blur, I felt love, anger, pain, hate, insecurity/security, uncertainty/certainty, all of it, like a huge wave, coming crashing down on me, and there I was dancing through it all, a mad dance, a violent and sometimes funny, sometimes enchanting dance.
And now, from where we are at, to where we need to be, there is so little that sets us free. Another sunset, another sunrise added to our days., days of healing, days of truth, days of glory, days when the universe tells you, slow down silly clown..slow down..
put a method to yourself silly clown,
put a method
take a leap of faith silly clown,
but climb the mountain with a bagful of patience.
6 am
again..
and its dawn again..
